Yup, my life is about my ANgel”, minsan nga di ko alam why? kahit sobrang taken for granted na ko i’d still feel and want to be just with him, minsan nga “Stupid” na ako but still i’d still yearn for him every single day. Ask me anything, yung mga bagay na kaya kong gawin for him, halos lahat i can. I can travel late at night, straight from the office sa house nya, uwi ng 4am sa house, i dont care if im super tired na talaga, just to see him. Alam ko namang “Stupid” ako but then I dont really care. Eh Mahal ko eh! I can’t even asked demansds from him… basta right now takot akong mawala siya, I ask him nga if He love me? and he say yes! but then hindi nya pa daw nya kayang makipag commit ulit (we broke up last July, but still were both hanging on. ) pero sabi nila if you really love him you dont doubt about entering a relationship, “hindi nga nya ako siguro mahal” . Tinatatak ko na nga sa Utak ko yan eh.
One time, I’ve met someone. na nagsasabing how can i let go kung ayaw kong mag open ng doors for a new one. db ang sarap ng feeling na me sumusundo sayo, who takes time to surprise you, and ask kung Kamusta ka na? na feel ko yung kilig, yung feling na me concern sayo, if i were to think about it, that man can offer me all. gwapo, mabait kahit papano responsible… Pero I chose to give up him just last 2 weeks ago.Kasi na realize ko I’m still so much in love with my angel.
My ANGEL who doesn’t even care about me, naaalala lang ako pag he needs me, who doesn’t even text me kung nakauwi na ko sa bahay pag galing ako sa house niya, na alam kong “mahal” pa rin nya yung ex- gf nya. i don’t even meet his friends, siguro kasi im nahihiya sya na ako lang yung gf nya:( honest deep inside im crying, and para akong candle na until unting natutunaw)
Pero ako andito pa rin sa tabi nya, just a text or a call wala sinasantabi ko just for him… to be there for him kung gusto nya ng kausap. Na top priority ko yung happiness nya kesa happiness ko. Minsan nga minumura ko ns sarili ko eh! Pero wa-epek pa rin. Para kasing I just need to be there for him, ns inspite of all those thing he’s the one worth loving pa rin.
I don’t know why God let it happen? I dont know why I have to stick to him kahit sobrang sakit. Kung bakit pina meet ni God sa kin ung taong ito… I really don’t know… Minsan gusto ko nang gumive-up, pero there’s this something who just keep me pushing pa rin sa kanya. Na every prayer ng buhay ko included siya.
Right now, I let God do what he wants, If it’s us or not in the end, i dont know. May be God wants me to learn things na dapat lahat ng bagay pinaghihirapan ni ultimo pagmamahal.
I know there’s light after a heavy rain, Lessons to learn, Mistakes to correct, Failure na hindi dapat ni reregret.
He might be my way to success. He might be my inspiration. He might be my sweetest downfall. I dont know right now, All I know Is, still I’m ready to give ny 80% for him. Ayoko mag expect, Ayaoko umasa… I’ll just live my life until such time na mawala na siya or hindi ko na kaya mag hold on.
And, dearest if you read this one, You’d been the best thing that happen to me. Hindi dahil pinasaya mo lang buhay ko. Ikaw rin ang nagbigay ng mga pinakamasakit na feeling na naramdan ko sa love.
